I AM is for Me

This has been the BIGGEST storm of my life.

You have probably been reading my Facebook posts. You have probably been in prayer for me and wondering, “Why are you doubting yourself? Why are you doubting your ability to serve others and the church? Why do you doubt your friends?” The main reason is because of this ultimate fear that I have: Rejection.

This past year, I’ve been rejected by MANY people for various reasons: my family, my best friends for 5 years from college (yes———–my best friends (ALL of them) from college), people who I thought were my friends in the church, and various other individuals. This storm has definitely taught me ONE thing: to be prayerful.

“Pray continually.”~1 Thessalonians 5:17~

This storm that I am going through right now has definitely allowed God to show me who my true friends are and who will ultimately stand by me: through the thick, the thin, the good, the bad, and the ugly. Praise God for revealing the truth to me. I AM is the truth! ~”Jesus answered, “I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me.”~John 14:6~

While I choose to not go into the details as to WHAT is going on in my life right now, I know that God is definitely for me. His Holy Spirit is refining me. Making me strong. A strong woman of God so that I know that I can do ANYTHING I put my heart, soul, and mind to, even as I get my life back in order and surrender everything to the ultimate control of my Heavenly Father. ~”He replied, “Because you have so little faith. Truly I tell you, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, ‘Move from here to there.’ and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you.”~Matthew 17:20~

I have learned a lesson worth learned through all of this: God’s will for my life is His will for me. NOT Me for myself. I have finally learned what it means for me to die to myself and trust God, even when the circumstances around me are tough. Even when others reject me: one by one and leave me even when they told me, “I love you,” to my face and then reject me without a reason or give excuses for their rejection of me. God’s love is perfect. People, even friends and family, fail you. Only the love of God is perfect and it never fails you. That is what I have learned in the midst of this storm I am facing. ~”The Lord appeared to us in the past, saying: “I have loved you with an everlasting love; I have drawn you with unfailing kindness.”~Jeremiah 31:3~

I saw two friends from my church, First Baptist Atlanta last week. As one of them prayed over me after taking me to a grocery store to shop, she said, “Thank you Jesus that You are a God of joy!” The other friend told me on a car ride from church, “You are loved.” Hearing these two friends praise God and reaffirm what He thinks of me made me realize that as I yield control to the Holy Spirit in the midst of this trial, then this allows me to take control of my life. ~”He will glorify me because it is from me that he will receive what he will make known to you.”~John 16:14~

I praise God for the provision and miracles He is doing in my life now. I praise Him for surrounding me with His love. Even that is enough. I AM is enough. I AM is enough for me. I AM is for me. Praise God!