In this moment of my life, I pray…..

• For peace.
• For joy.
• For healing.
• For restoration.
• For agape love.

It is funny how God allows one to walk through trials that God did not handpick anyone else to go through except YOURSELF. Painful. Yes. But true.

When you are in that darkest moment of your life and no one, not even church family or blood relatives, understands, it is in these darkest moments like this that teach you to trust God: WITH EVERYTHING.

You can ask for prayers, but no one is entitled or expected to understand the road that God has called you to walk on for the glory of Jesus Christ.

“But as truly as I live, all the earth shall be filled with the glory of the Lord.”~Numbers 14:21, KJV~

I thank God for the tears. I thank God for the pain. I thank God for allowing me to come to a point where I can weep: just me and Jesus. Jesus and I. alone. In brokenness and surrender. In solitude. And prayer……all while eating a box of chocolates from a dear and genuine friend of mine.

Prayer is bittersweet and I thank God for it. I am at a point in my life where I trust God and only God. Just God. Me and Jesus. There is joy that can be found in the Holy Spirit as He guides you in all things.

“For his anger is but for a moment, and his favor is for a lifetime. Weeping may tarry for the night, but joy comes with the morning.”~Psalm 30:5, ESV~

When others do not understand me and why I feel the way that I feel, it gives me more reason to pray for others to meet God and know more of who Jesus is as I meet and serve them where they are at:with a grateful heart, even when others resent me, don’t want to understand my story, or what God is doing in and through me as He refines me to be more like Jesus.

I love people. All people. I may not be perfect and have my flaws. There have even been times where I have been selfish instead of selfless for others. But God is definitely working in and through me, and it breaks my heart to see imperfections and sins when sinners themselves choose to resent me for reasons I do not understand, even as I serve them. So, I pray for them. 🙂

I pray for God to transform lives. I pray for God to turn frowns into smiles and tears of sadness into tears of joy. I pray for God to work, work, work: nonstop, until that one sinner falls onto his or her knees and trusts Jesus to save him or her: from self.

I pray for God to redeem lives. I pray for the world and the people in it to change. I pray for bitterness, resentment, and other feelings that are not Godly to leave the church: as spotless and pure as she is MEANT TO BE.

I pray for God to cure diseases and mental illness. I pray for war and violence to end in all parts of the world. I pray for miracles: healing in families that are broken, whether Christian or non-Christian. I pray for restoration of relationships and friendships that are broken and need mending……now!

God’s timing is everything. Everything. As no sin and selfish act of mankind is new under the sun to God. Even God:

~”There is a time for everything,

and a season for every activity under the heavens:

a time to be born and a time to die,

a time to plant and a time to uproot, 

a time to kill and a time to heal,

a time to tear down and a time to build,

a time to weep and a time to laugh,

a time to mourn and a time to dance,

a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them,

a time to embrace and a time to refrain from embracing,

a time to search and a time to give up,

a time to keep and a time to throw away,

a time to tear and a time to mend,

a time to be silent and a time to speak,

a time to love and a time to hate,

a time for war and a time for peace.

He has made everything beautiful in its time. He has also set eternity in the human heart; yet no one can fathom what God has done from beginning to end.”~Ecclesiastes 3:1-8, 11, NIV~

If you keep reading, you will know (if you have ever personally met me) that I try to be genuine, even in prayer, as I intercede for others and myself.

I am now going to end this blog post in prayer: for you, dear reader:

Dear God,

I thank you for the reader who was led by Your Holy Spirit to open this blog post and read it. I pray for your grace and agape love to cover that person all in your love and bless him or her as she reads it. I pray for any sin in that person’s heart and that any refinement of the heart will make that person tested, tried, and true like Job. Even blessed and pure. I pray for stories that the person has that are just as painful as mine that the person will know You through them. And Jesus. As he or she is guided by Your Holy Spirit. Empower him or her to be the change that You, O Father God, wish to see in him or her as he or she does life in this dark world. Use him or her as a guiding light that leads him or her straight to Jesus: today. Bless and keep every reader binded by the power of Your Holy Spirit and encouraged. I don’t have to be the one that leads that reader or person to Jesus, but I pray that someone else who You ordain to be salt and light will today. I pray that this blog post touched a life that needed to be healed and that healing will take place: today.

In Jesus’ Name,

Amen!