Lately, I am learning to become more patient with myself and others.
As a child of God with Bi Polar Disorder, I am learning that patience must be exercised so that God’s love and grace can be put on full display as Jesus Christ is glorified. Patience is my portion, in the name of Jesus Christ.
~”Better is the end of a thing than the beginning thereof: and the patient in spirit is better than the proud in spirit.”~Ecclesiastes 7:8, KJV~
I exercise patience through the words that I speak. I exercise patience through my deeds. This is because faith without the actions of Christ is dead.
In spite of my Bi Polar Disorder diagnosis, I seek the Lord as I pray to Him for ways that I can be more patient. Whether it be as I interact with my roommate’s daughters as I attempt to understand them as they communicate to me or with having a conversation with my family members about Jesus, God is still working on me to be more patient.
I even have to pray to the Lord for ways that I can be more patient with myself in terms of my emotional state surrounding my Bi Polar Disorder. Instead of constantly texting my friends as I have in the past whenever they do not respond right away, I am patient. Instead of constantly making phone calls to my dad when he still chooses to not respond to me, I am patient. Instead of wanting to rush God and His plans for me in regards to my book being published, I am patient.
The Lord knows what He is doing in terms of His plans for my life, which is why I choose patience over pride. The Lord’s ways are higher than my ways because He sees the bigger picture when I do not, which is why I choose patience over pride. The Lord’s thoughts are higher than my thoughts, which is why I surrender to Him in order to work on me being more patient as opposed to prideful.
God is greater than my Bi Polar Disorder diagnosis. In the midst of my Bi Polar Disorder diagnosis, God is making me more patient with my emotions as I still myself in His presence.
I am calm because I am still in the presence of the Lord. Therefore, patience is my portion instead of pride. I am at peace with God because His presence fills me up with greater joy. Therefore, patience is my portion instead of pride. Peace of God overflows in abundance with my emotions in the midst of my Bi Polar Disorder. Therefore, patience is the key that unlocks greater blessings and abundance, as my portion. I am now free indeed, in the name of Jesus Christ.
May you ask of the Lord to teach you how to be more patient today. Walk in patience with yourself as you are patient with others. Be patient because it is not just a virtue that the world knows: it is a fruit of the Holy Spirit. God bless you!