I believe. I believe in the power of the tongue.

~”Death and life are in the power of the tongue, and those who love it will eat its fruits.”~Proverbs 18:21, ESV~

Words can either speak life or speak death over your life. As a child of God with bipolar disorder, I choose the words that I think and the words that I speak over my life. This is in order to build me up and not to tear me down.

I can say, “I will not accomplish my goal,” and remain in a stagnant or negative mindset or I can say, “I will accomplish my goal,” and move forward with a hopeful perspective.

A hopeful perspective, as a child of God with bipolar disorder, is a positive perspective. I press on towards my calling of the Lord, which is to serve the multitudes and the mentally-ill, through my writings as an author, in Christ Jesus.

A hopeful perspective, as a child of God with bipolar disorder, is a joyful countenance. I can be still and know that Jesus is my Joy, deep in my heart and deep in my soul, as I face trials and temptations that may come my way. As a child of God with bipolar disorder, I have already overcome the trials and temptations that come my way, in the Name of Jesus Christ.

In my first book to be released in February 2022, “A Victory Song: Beneath the Veil,” I talk about how I overcome my struggle with how to forgive my mother through the counseling process at my church. My counselor at my church takes me through the process of teaching me how to forgive my mother as I also learn to forgive myself in the process (My prayer is that if you are planning to buy a copy of my book, “A Victory Song: Beneath the Veil,” in February 2022 that it will bless your heart, mind, and soul as you read the story of my testimony of how I forgave my mother as a result of the counseling process. I encourage you to make plans to buy this book, if you have not, and let it bless your soul!).

Lastly, a hopeful perspective, as a child of God with bipolar disorder, is peace of the Lord. In the midst of my ups and downs in my emotions (when I feel happy, sad, angry, etc.), I surrender my emotions to the Lord and let Him deal with them in exchange for peace of God in my heart and in my mind. Praise the Lord and Hallelujah!

~”Not only that, but we rejoice in our sufferings, knowing that suffering produces endurance, and endurance produces character, and character produces hope.”~ Romans 5:3-4, ESV~

Keep calm and press on towards a hopeful perspective today! God bless you and grace and peace!

The moon and the stars are going behind the clouds. The moon and the stars are going behind the clouds before I start to shine bright.

God is making me and preparing me for my moment to shine brighter than the moon and the stars before He decides to release my book to the public in February 2022. You may be reading this and wondering, “Sarah: What do you mean when you say this?”

When I make this declaration, I mean that God is doing a new thing in me before His Holy Spirit grants me permission to release my book in February 2022.

~”Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation. The old has passed away; behold, the new has come.”~ 2 Corinthians 5:17, ESV~

During my prayer time with the Lord recently, I had an open vision. As I was riding the bus from work, I had a vision about the moon and the stars, which I believe that God is using in terms of this open vision to talk to me about my destiny.

I noticed that in this open vision that I had that the moon and the stars were going behind the clouds. They shined brightly, but SO BRIGHT that the glory of God could not contain this glory of His Son, Jesus, behind the clouds.

At the end of the open vision, the moon and the stars came out from behind the clouds and shone brighter and brighter than when before they went behind the clouds.

This open vision and the meaning behind the open vision was majestic and magnificent as the Holy Spirit of God showed me that I will shine BRIGHTER than when I first began to write this first book to be released in February 2022, “A Victory Song: Beneath the Veil.’

The glory of God is SO MAJESTIC and it is also VERY MAGNIFICENT to behold! I cannot wait to see this new thing, this new book, that is being birthed in me and from me called, “A Victory Song: Beneath the Veil,” in February 2022!!

~”And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to his purpose.” ~Romans 8:28, ESV~

It is AMAZING that God can use an open vision to put His glory on display all while communicating with me about the victory that shall be behind the successful birthing of my first book, “A Victory Song: Beneath the Veil.” God uses ALL THINGS, including something so simple as the moon and the stars, to talk to me about my purposed and destiny! Glory to God and Hallelujah!

The moon and stars are going behind the clouds…the moon and the stars are going behind the clouds so that I AM can shine brighter in and through me once my book is published. To Jehovah be glorified!

**If you are planning to purchase a copy of my book, “A Victory Song: Beneath the Veil,” it will be available in hardcover, paperback, and e-book in February 2022. Make plans for this new year to buy it and BE BLESSED by it! God bless you!

I press on. I press onward and into my calling and destiny.

My calling is to be an author for the multitudes. I am chosen by the Lord, for such a time is this, to be an author for the multitudes to read and to see my writing and to see the glory of the Lord put on display in the testimonies of my story. I knew about my calling to be an author when I was a child.

~”For many are called, but few are chosen.”~ Matthew 22:14, ESV~

When I was in the fifth grade, I wrote many stories. My fifth grade teacher would have described me as a very creative and imaginative child. I would write stories that included my friends and family members. Other times, I would write stories that came to me as I wrote, with my pencil and paper in hand.

There was one time time when my Kindergarten teacher asked me, “What do you want to be when you grow up?” I replied to my Kindergarten teacher, “I want to be an author.”

Did I want to be a nurse? No. Did I want to be a doctor? Absolutely not! I wanted to be an author.

Little did I know that when I reached my early adult years that I would be the news editor for Atlanta Christian Voice. Little did I know that God would want me to start this blog that I am writing now, “Sarah’s Spiritual Walk.” Little did I know that God would want me to begin writing my first book a few years ago.

My first book, “A Victory Song: Beneath the Veil,” will be released in February 2022 and is a memoir and a testimony regarding my walk with the Lord, as a child of God with bipolar disorder, over the years of my life. The years that this book starts and ends begins with my early childhood and ends with me in my late twenties.

One reason that I am excited that this book is going to be released is because it will bring the light and love of Jesus Christ to those who struggle with and battle mental illness, on a daily basis. one goal of my book is to be the light and love of Jesus Christ to the multitudes. The story of my mental illness, I pray, will be the light and love of Jesus Christ as a witness of His light and love for me from my mental illness.

Another reason that I am excited that this book is going to be released is because it will be the hands and feet of Jesus Christ to the multitudes, who battle with mental illness, on a daily basis. I am expectant to see how the hands and feet of Christ will touch the multitudes, who battle with mental illness, as a result of the testimony, from the story behind my mental illness.

~”And how can anyone preach unless they are sent? As it is written: “How beautiful are the feet of those who bring good news!”~Romans 10:15, NIV~

A final reason that I am excited for the release of my book, “A Victory Song: Beneath the Veil,” is because it will allow for me to finally step into my calling, as an official author, of my first book, as those in the world celebrate and rejoice in me becoming an author and the authorship of my first book.

I invite you, children of God and those who do not know Jesus, to purchase a copy of my book, “A Victory Song: Beneath the Veil,” once it is released in February 2022. In this way, you will be celebrating with me as I officially become an author of my first book and glorify God through my writing and story.

I press on. I press onward and into my calling and destiny, in the Name of Jesus Christ.

I am joyful. I am a joyful child of the King with bipolar disorder.

This Christmas season was difficult. One reason is because of my bipolar disorder and the challenges and circumstances surrounding it. I became more emotional and my emotions drew me closer to Him so that I could express my emotions more as the Lord above expressed His great love to me.

One way that the Lord expressed His great love to me this Christmas season was through prayer. Prayer drew me closer to the Lord as I made a connection to the Divine Almighty through this great outlet called prayer. The Lord gave me the opportunity to pray out my emotions to Him: my sadness, my anger, and the grief that I was experiencing as I told the Lord of my feelings.

~”The LORD hath appeared of old unto me, saying, Yea, I have loved thee with an everlasting love: therefore with lovingkindness have I drawn thee.”~ Jeremiah 31: 3, KJV~

The more that I prayed out my emotions to the Lord (especially on Christmas Eve), the more that I experienced the love of the Lord as the ultimate emotion that conquered all of my other emotions.

`’No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us.”~ Romans 8: 37, NIV~

As I expressed my sadness to the Lord, this allowed for me to experience the love of God, as a child of God with bipolar disorder. Tears are normal and so is crying before the Lord in His presence. Crying allows for me, as a child of God with bipolar disorder, to express my deepest thoughts and words before the Lord that make me sad.

Part of learning to let go is learning how to process sadness. This is one of the ways that I became content before the presence of the Lord. In this way, I experienced the overwhelming love of Jehovah.

As I expressed my anger to the Lord, I learned to let go of the resentment that I felt, particularly towards my friends from college and family members (I have forgiven them, but it is especially hard for me during Christmas to not think about the hurt that they caused me. I talk more in my book to be released in February 2022, “A Victory Song: Beneath the Veil,” about how I learned to set boundaries with my friends from college as a result of the hurt that they caused me out of my pain and in surrender to the Lord as the Lord showed me how to forgive them. Please consider buying this book if you are already thinking about buying it!)

Overall, I experienced the love of the Lord through learning to journal out my feelings of anger towards my friends from college and my family members. Part of learning to let go is learning healthy and Godly ways to process anger, especially through journaling and prayer. In this way, I still experience the overwhelming love of Jehovah in His presence (even at Christmas time!!)

A I expressed the grief that I felt to the Lord, I learned to LET GO, LET IT GO, and to LET GOD draw near to me, especially during this Christmas time. Going on nature walks is one way that I die to my sadness and anger that I feel and let the love of God cover my heart as I process the grief that I feel around this Christmas time. In this way, I always feel the love of God carrying me and drawing me nearer and nearer to Him: Jesus, that is.

My love for Jesus has grown over the years as a result of learning to let go and let God work in and on my heart and heal my mind. As a result, I feel myself drawing closer to Jesus as I step deeper and deeper into His presence and let the heart of God run red over me.

The blood of Jesus runs red for me, as a child of God with bipolar disorder, this Christmas season and I pray that You will let it run red for you too and for your loved ones in your home this Christmas too! Merry Christmas everyone!!

I had a vision. I had an open night vision.

~“And it shall come to pass afterward, that I will pour out my Spirit on all flesh; your sons and your daughters shall prophesy, your old men shall dream dreams, and your young men shall see visions.”~Joel 2:28, ESV~

During my prayer time with the Lord, I had an open vision that I was a dandelion. The dandelion shed its seeds and turned into a white rose. The rose eventually shed its white petals and I offered the white petals to those in the world to look at, behold, and marvel the white petals of the flower that I presented to them with my hands.

Some in the world accepted the white petals while others in the world rejected them. As I prayed to the Lord and inquired of Him of the meaning behind this open night vision, the Holy Spirit showed me that the dandelion represents the old version of me while the white rose and its white petals represent the new me in Christ as the Holy Spirit of God is preparing me for the release of my book, “A Victory Song: Beneath the Veil.”

~”Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation. The old has passed away; behold, the new has come.”~2 Corinthians 5:17, ESV~

I believe that this open night vision has to do with the release of my upcoming book, “A Victory Song: Beneath the Veil,” and that not everyone will accept the message and the message of Christ behind my book. This is solely because in the vision, there were people that I saw in the vision that rejected me, as the representation of the white rose petals.

The people who accepted me, as the representation of the white rose petals, were my supporters and people who I know who I am connected with today. As a child of God with bipolar disorder, people will love me. As a child of God with bipolar disorder, people will hate me for no reason. The Holy Spirit of God is preparing me for my supporters and is also preparing me for those that do not support me.

This is very profound because of past rejection that I have faced in the past, especially as it relates to my friends from college (I talk about his very extensively in my upcoming book and how the Lord gave me the strength to move forward through counseling from my church and to overcome them and their choice to reject me). While I am used to people rejecting me, I am also used to people loving me too.

This love is a new kind of love that only the hands and feet of Christ could give me: both, to my supporters and to those that do not support me. Jesus loves me. Jesus also loves everyone, even if they choose to not love Him back. This is the new Way of love that the Holy Spirit of God is teaching me as Jehovah prepares me for the release of my book, “A Victory Song: Beneath the Veil.”

The Lord has great plans for my future and is molding me and making me prepared and ready for the release of my book to be published in February 2022.

~”But in your hearts honor Christ the Lord as holy, always being prepared to make a defense to anyone who asks you for a reason for the hope that is in you; yet do it with gentleness and respect.”~1 Peter 3:15, ESV~

My supporters may love me and those who do not support me may hate me without a cause, but I am ready to defend the reason for this hope that is in Jesus Christ, my Lord and Savior, as my book is to be published in February 2022.

This is my message for everyone reading this blog post: prepare and make ready! My white rose petals are going to be shared with the world through the extravagant love of Jesus and so is my story. God bless you and Merry Christmas!!

You give life. You gave me the gift of eternal life that is Jesus Christ.

Not many people know that my birthday falls exactly three months after Christmas Day (March 25th). However, I want to use this blog post to focus on the birth of Jesus and His impact on my life before my birthday is to begin in the year of 2022.

~”For no word from God will ever fail.”~ Luke 1:37, NIV~

As a child of God with bipolar disorder, the impact that the birth of Christ has had on my life is significant. This is because the birth of Christ is a symbolic reminder for me, that Jesus came to this earth to die for my bipolar disorder.

God the Father sent His only begotten Son, Jesus Christ, to be born for me in a manger and to be born for my bipolar disorder so that He could die for my bipolar disorder.

Even though I know that my bipolar disorder is not curable, I trust that God knows what is best for my life and how His Holy Spirit intends to use me in spite of my bipolar disorder. The birth of Jesus Christ reminds me that He was born for me so that my bipolar disorder can become a testimony through my book, “A Victory Song: Beneath the Veil,” to be released in February 2022.

My testimony through this book connects with and relates with my birthday because I consider myself to be a miracle child. The difference between myself and Christ Jesus is that Jesus is the ONLY miracle child that was born to die to save the world and I am a miracle child because of the manner and the way that I was born and how the Lord desired to use me, even after I was born.

~”Delight yourself in the LORD, and he will give you the desires of your heart. ~Psalm 37:4, ESV~

At the moment of my birth on March 25th, 1991, the doctors had to turn me over. This was because I was upside down. If I was not turned upside down, this would have led to greater complications during my birth. It is because of this instance (and because of the fact that I was born early, that I consider myself to be a miracle baby with a purpose for Christ the Lord). In spite of my complications at birth, the Lord still had a purpose and a plan for me.

Little did I know that the birth of Christ would be significant to me because His birth is a symbolic reminder for me that Christ was born for me so that I could testify of the Lord’s goodness to me in spite of my bipolar disorder. This is the desire that the Lord God has placed on my heart: to be a delight to the multitudes in spite of my bipolar disorder and in spite of the complications that I faced at birth.

The handiwork of the Lord is amazing and even though I will be thirty-one years old on March 25th, 2022, His work for me is not finished yet and the Way that He wants to use me in spite of my bipolar disorder is not finished until Christ says, “It is finished!”

Christ’s birth touched me at the moment that I was born on March 25th, 1991. It will continue to touch me until the good Lord calls me home and at that moment, His work in me will be complete.

Hallelujah and Amen!

I have wounds. I have mental wounds, emotional wounds and spiritual wounds. 

It is hard, especially during the Christmas season, to forget these wounds that others have inflicted on me over the years. But, it is the saving grace of my Lord and Savior, King Jesus, that has caused me to extend the hand of forgiveness to those that hate me and despise me for no reason. This has allowed me to experience the healing hand of God in my life in beautiful ways. 

~”He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds.” ~Psalm 147: 3, NIV~ 

I remember when I went to the hospital one year ago because of suicidal thoughts and other issues that I was dealing with at the time. I met a lady at the hospital, who had many spiritual and mental issues that of which I can relate. One, being that she was very resentful to everyone who she crossed paths with, including me, and I did nothing wrong to this human being, but be kind to her.  Two, her attitude changed once she had an encounter with the God that I serve, Jesus Christ, as a result of her meeting me.

The Holy Spirit of God showed me, in that moment, that in order for me to be the healing hand of God, the light of God and the love of Christ in this woman’s life that I needed to put my baggage aside and smile and be kind back to her. This is because being kind is a demonstration of the love of Christ in the lives of His people. 

~”Be kind to one another, tenderhearted, forgiving one another, as God in Christ forgave you.”~Ephesians 4:32, ESV~ 

When this woman stated mean remarks to me as I ate my lunch a few times at the hospital commons area, I responded with kindness. When this woman screamed and shouted at me before I took a shower, I reacted with kind words. When this woman accused me of doing wrong when, in fact, I did nothing to intentionally hurt this woman, I continued to be kind to her. 

After these few episodes of witnessing this woman’s unkind words and remarks to me, she eventually apologized to me and told me that I was inspiring to her to empower and help her to be kind, even in the midst of unkindness. This was definitely evidence of the Lord’s working power working to heal this woman’s broken heart and mind, and His Holy Spirit used me to be the healing touch of God in her life when she needed me to be, even though it was not expected in return.   

I left the hospital with a fresh perspective on the mentally ill and on how the Holy Spirit of God wants to use me in the days ahead, especially with the release of my book, “A Victory Song: Beneath the Veil,” in February 2022. This book sheds light on my life experiences, as a child of God with bipolar disorder, and talks about the counseling experience that I went through, at my church, to experience healing, help and hope through the counseling ministry at my church.  

If you are interested in wanting to learn more about my book, feel free to message me on my Facebook or Instagram accounts @sarahdickensauthor. Thank you kindly everyone for reading  this blog post and may it bless your heart, mind and soul. God bless you!