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I Choose Patience

Lately, I am learning to become more patient with myself and others.

As a child of God with Bi Polar Disorder, I am learning that patience must be exercised so that God’s love and grace can be put on full display as Jesus Christ is glorified. Patience is my portion, in the name of Jesus Christ.

~”Better is the end of a thing than the beginning thereof: and the patient in spirit is better than the proud in spirit.”~Ecclesiastes 7:8, KJV~

I exercise patience through the words that I speak. I exercise patience through my deeds. This is because faith without the actions of Christ is dead.

In spite of my Bi Polar Disorder diagnosis, I seek the Lord as I pray to Him for ways that I can be more patient. Whether it be as I interact with my roommate’s daughters as I attempt to understand them as they communicate to me or with having a conversation with my family members about Jesus, God is still working on me to be more patient.

I even have to pray to the Lord for ways that I can be more patient with myself in terms of my emotional state surrounding my Bi Polar Disorder. Instead of constantly texting my friends as I have in the past whenever they do not respond right away, I am patient. Instead of constantly making phone calls to my dad when he still chooses to not respond to me, I am patient. Instead of wanting to rush God and His plans for me in regards to my book being published, I am patient.

The Lord knows what He is doing in terms of His plans for my life, which is why I choose patience over pride. The Lord’s ways are higher than my ways because He sees the bigger picture when I do not, which is why I choose patience over pride. The Lord’s thoughts are higher than my thoughts, which is why I surrender to Him in order to work on me being more patient as opposed to prideful.

God is greater than my Bi Polar Disorder diagnosis. In the midst of my Bi Polar Disorder diagnosis, God is making me more patient with my emotions as I still myself in His presence.

I am calm because I am still in the presence of the Lord. Therefore, patience is my portion instead of pride. I am at peace with God because His presence fills me up with greater joy. Therefore, patience is my portion instead of pride. Peace of God overflows in abundance with my emotions in the midst of my Bi Polar Disorder. Therefore, patience is the key that unlocks greater blessings and abundance, as my portion. I am now free indeed, in the name of Jesus Christ.

May you ask of the Lord to teach you how to be more patient today. Walk in patience with yourself as you are patient with others. Be patient because it is not just a virtue that the world knows: it is a fruit of the Holy Spirit. God bless you!

I Yield to Self-Control

I see the light. I see the light of God that is through Jesus Christ. At last, my spiritual eyes have been opened.

As I see the light of God, I see clearer. I think more clearly. I can trust God as He gives me the sight to look at the bigger picture of what His Holy Spirit is allowing for me to see. I have faith as God shows me the bigger picture.

~”So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen, since what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.”~2 Corinthians 4:18, NIV~

I am diagnosed with Bi Polar Disorder. I have days in which my mood is positive and days in which my mood is negative. In other words, I have my good days and I have my bad days.

I carry this cross called Bi Polar Disorder daily. Recently, the Holy Spirit shed light into my emotions and showed me that I must claim self-control over my emotions as my portion. This is because self-control over my emotions is a fruit of the Holy Spirit of which I already have on the inside my heart.

I must claim this fruit of self-control that the Holy Spirit blessed me with as I seek the Lord to become more Christ-like. Self-control is my portion today, in the name of Jesus Christ!

~”But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, self-control; against such things there is no law.”~Galatians 5:22-23, ESV~

While I am not perfect, I ask the Lord as I pray to give me the spirit of self-control over my emotions so that the circumstances associated with my Bi Polar Disorder submit to the will and power of God through Jesus Christ.

Through Christ, I can self-control my emotions. Through Christ, I am able to self-control my emotions. Through Christ, self-controlling my emotions is possible!

The Holy Spirit of God will continue to show me the route that I must take as I yield to the authority of God and let Him take control of my emotions as I self-control my emotions. I thank God for this revelation knowledge that He gave me, as my portion, and for self-control. Praise the Lord and bless His holy name today! Hallelujah!

Pray for me as I seek God’s will and take steps of faith concerning my mental health as well as for favor with my health as my portion. Thank you kindly everyone and God bless you!

God: My Immovable Anchor

I have no one. I have no one, except God, in my life.

God is my Comforter. God is my Rock. God is my Everything. I praise the Lord for being my Anchor in the midst of this storm.

~”We have this hope as an anchor for the soul, firm and secure. It enters the inner sanctuary behind the curtain.”~Hebrews 6:19, NIV~

Recently, I lost my job. While I will not go into the reason as to why I was let go, God is still good and still sovereign. God allowed me to lose my job so that I can depend upon Him to meet my needs.

Also, I feel really alone during this time of the Coronavirus pandemic. Not many of my Christian friends, both brothers and sisters in Christ, have taken the initiative to check in on me to see how I am doing these days. I’m not saying that all of them have not checked in on me. I am saying that most of them have not checked on me to see how I am doing. I pray that God will open their eyes and that they will repent for how they are treating me, even if it is unintentional.

I also opened up about my mental illness for the first time on social media because the Lord led me to open up about it. I cannot help but notice that since I opened up about it on social media that my friends on social media are commenting less and liking less. I knew that this would probably happen, but God is using this to prove to me to trust in Him and not in man to make me content.

~”Not that I am speaking of being in need, for I have learned in whatever situation I am to be content.”~Philippians 4:11, ESV~

I have Bi Polar Disorder. I am also a child of God. God loves me. God loves me irregardless of my Bi Polar Disorder diagnosis. My friends on social media and outside of social media can change how and what they think of me because of my Bi Polar Disorder diagnosis. God’s Word never changes and will always remain constant in my life.

~”Jesus Christ is the same yesterday, today, and forever.”~Hebrews 13:8, NLT~

I thank God for these storms that He is allowing to take place in my life. I praise God for using these storms to reach me and teach me to lean in on Him and to trust in Him. I know that God will provide for me a better job. I know that God is still good and still sovereign, even in the midst of my Bi Polar Disorder diagnosis.

Even if I do not know what the outcome of these storms are in my life, God is still good and still sovereign. Even though I do not know how God is going to use me to make an impact on the world and those in it through the book that I wrote (once it is published), God is still good and still sovereign. Even when my family ostracizes me and my friends on social media comment and like less and less, God is still good and still sovereign.

I thank the Lord for these storms. I am excited to see how God is going to end these storms and still prove His goodness and sovereignty in the midst of these storms. I will continue to claim the promises of God and remain strong in Him. God is my Strength. God is good. And God is sovereign.

Please continue to pray for me and my book (it is not yet published and should be published by June or July 2021) and that God will favor the editing and publishing process with my book with the Christian self-publishing company that my book is with in this moment. Thank you and God bless you!

Fruitfulness in the Word of God (The Truth of His Word)

I thank God. I thank God that He opened up my eyes.

Jesus is the Way. Jesus is the Truth. Jesus is the Life of my life.

~”Jesus answered, “I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me.”~John 14:5, NIV~

A few years ago, I was a part of a, “ministry,” that I did not realize was a part of the New Age Religion. I listened to the messages online and watched the leader of this ministry preach.

Then, the Lord led me to take a step back from this ministry and not participate in anything related to it anymore because one of my friends from my home church in Atlanta, Georgia warned me about it.

I took her warning very seriously. Then, I made an announcement on social media that I did not want any more phone calls from this ministry and that I did not want anything to do with the ministry anymore.

My friend from my home church commended me for what I did and said to me, “I told you.” Then, it was about one year later and I was deceived again.

The same ministry continued to call me and I answered the phone call after giving into what appeared to be harrassment from this, “ministry.” The reason why I answered the phone calls is because I felt as if I had to because of the loneliness and isolation that I felt during the Coronavirus pandemic. I was entirely deceived without realizing it. I was very vulnerable at the time due to the isolation that I felt due to the Coronavirus pandemic.

Then, one of my friends reached out to me and shared a video to me about this same ministry and it had this message from the Bible in it.

~”Then if any man shall say unto you, Lo, here is Christ, or there; believe it not. For there shall arise false Christs, and false prophets, and shall shew great signs and wonders; insomuch that, if it were possible, they shall deceive the very elect. Behold, I have told you before.”~Matthew 24:23-25, KJV~

The leader of this ministry is a false christ and I did not realize it. The leader of this ministry may not be the antichrist, but he is an antichrist because he is demonstrating great signs and wonders and deceiving vulnerable people, like me, during this time of the Coronavirus pandemic.

It was after watching the video that my friend shared with me that God opened up my eyes to the truth. Jesus was, and is, and is to be the only Truth. No other prophets are the Truth like Jesus is the Truth to the multitudes.

I thank God for protecting me. I thank God for preserving my life. No weapon that antichrists have formed against me and my assignment, especially to become an author, shall prevail. I thank God for opening up my eyes!

Now that you have read my story, have you ever asked yourself, “Are there any changes that I need to make? Is there a, “ministry,” that claims to profess Christ in their teachings, and yet they claim to perform signs and wonders? Are the teachings false teachings and do you need to leave it?

I encourage you that after reading my story that you repent, leave the, “ministry,” and find a ministry that will be fruitful and that preaches the Truth of the Word of God and to claim that Truth today. Stay encouraged and God bless you!

My Revelation of Jesus Christ (The Book to Birth Forth To the Multitudes)

The name of Jesus is glorious. The name of Jesus brings glory all around me!

This morning, I prayed and as I prayed, the Holy Spirit of God fell upon me and began to show me my purpose and my destiny that is all a part of the great plans that Jehovah God has for me. I thank God for the great and mighty plans that He has for me. Thank You Jesus!

~”For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.”~Jeremiah 29:11, NIV~

God has plans. The plans that God has for me are great and prosperous plans. I believe in the plans that God has for me.

A few years ago, the Lord showed me in a vision that I would write a book. The book that I have written is not published yet, but it is expected to be published by June or July 2021.

The book that I wrote took one year for me to write. One year after I wrote it, I searched, and searched, and searched for a Christian self-publisher.

After many months of searching and canceling contracts with publishing companies, the Lord finally led me to a Christian self-publisher. I signed the contract and there is a chance that my book will be made into a movie by this same Christian self-publisher. Hallelujah!

I was so relieved when God showed me that part of my destiny that is to be fulfilled in the Lord is to become a Christian author in order for me to win the multitudes to Christ, both Christian and non-Christian.

I had a vision this morning as I was praying to God. He showed me a staircase and took me to Heaven. I walked up the stairs to meet Jesus and He was sitting in the throne room of Jehovah. He showed me the book that I had written. He told me in the vision, “It is finished!,” and slammed the book pages shut.

Then, the angels that God sent from His throne room descended from Heaven and were scattered to different parts of the world. These angels sent my book to the nations to touch the world and those who were in the world. I was in awe of the Lamb by what I saw in this vision that at the end of this vision, I bowed to the King.

Then, Jesus placed a crown of glory on my forehead and said to me, “Well done, my good and faithful daughter!”

I thanked God as I prayed for the revelation that He showed me. This revelation too shall come to pass in the glory, in the name of Jesus!

I have faith in God and believe in His begotten Son that my dream book shall come to pass. I shall have a crown. I shall be elevated to the next level of glory. And it shall be glorious!

Hallelujah!

To Show Mercy (Every Time You Pray)

Do you know mercy? Do you know the mercy of God the Father?

If you know the mercy of the Father, then you can extend that same mercy to others, whether they know Jesus as their Lord and Savior or do not know Him as their Lord and Savior.

~”Blessed are the merciful: for they shall obtain mercy.”~Matthew 5:7, KJV~

By showing mercy to others, you are showing others agape love that is pure of the Lord and compassion. You are being loving. You are being tender. You are being kind. You are being compassionate. You are being merciful.

I remember when my two best friends from college, who I knew for five years, decided to end their friendship with me. It was for many reasons, and I had to forgive myself for hurting them and for sinning against them and for the horrible things that they did to me that hurt me. It was a process that took about two years, including counseling at my church.

I reached out to them. Many times. Through phone call, text, and messages on social media, asking for their forgiveness. One of them reached out to me, telling me that she, “forgave me of my offenses,” yet she did not show me mercy in re-kindling the friendship with me. The other friend told me that she would, “reach out to me,” but did not fulfill her promise to me. She lied to me.

I’m not saying that what these two friends did was entirely right. I believe that it was not entirely right because the first friend did not show mercy and the other friend did not show me mercy either by lying to me. This is the part of the story that I had to forgive them for not showing me mercy and bless them every time that I prayed before my Father.

I learned and God taught me through this experience that He is merciful and that I am commanded, as His daughter, to show mercy to others because Jesus demonstrated mercy to others through His death on the cross and resurrection from the grave.

It is important to God that as His children and to be a reflection of His mercy to others that we show mercy to others. I’m not saying that we enable sin. That is where boundaries come in and can be helpful. But, we are commanded by God to show mercy to others because it is what Christ did for us. We cannot shut people out and think that what we do is right because God never shut anyone out of Heaven. Jesus is Lord and He is the God of second and third chances. Not one time that an offense is committed and then, it is the end.

I eventually forgave these two friends. I have also moved forward with God by my side, as He always shows me mercy. They are new every morning in my heart and in my soul.

~”Because of the Lord’s great love we are not consumed, for his compassions never fail. They are new every morning; great is your faithfulness.”~Lamentations 3:22-23, NIV~

What about you? Do you show mercy to others and do you have peace in your heart, whether you made the choice to show mercy or not to show mercy to others?

God: My Promisekeeper

What do you believe? What do you believe in God for?

All of the promises of the Lord are mentioned in the Bible. Not one thing does God leave out from His Word. He promises to fulfill all of His promises because He is a Promisekeeper.

~”For no word from God will ever fail.”~Luke 1:37, NIV~

The Lord is good in His sovereignty because He is sovereign. God has continually shown me His sovereignty in my life.

I remember when the Lord showed me, by the power of His Holy Spirit, that He wanted me to go back to school to become a counselor. He showed me this vision about two to three years before I even went back to school to become a counselor.

I waited. And I waited. And I patiently waited for the Lord to give me clear instruction as to when He wanted me to return to Liberty University to complete my Master of Arts degree in Clinical Mental Health Counseling.

It was in 2016 that the Lord showed me that I would return to school to complete this degree. Then, in the Fall 2019, I returned to school to complete my counseling degree.

I praise and thank God for showing me the exact day and time that He wanted me to return to school. I trusted and waited for God to give me clear instruction on when to act and I obeyed Him.

I obeyed God and my obedience in Him paid off. The Lord rewarded me with greater wisdom and understanding in this field of study as I stepped out on faith and obeyed the King of kings and Lord of lords.

~”(For we walk by faith, not by sight:).”~2 Corinthians 5:7, KJV~

Because I stepped out on faith and obeyed God in His divine timing, He blessed me with favor in getting into Liberty University in His diving timing. Amen!

I will never forget the promises of God. I will always remember them!

What about you? Do you believe in the promises of God? What do you believe? What do you believe in God for?

To Walk with the Father (Hand in Hand/By and By)

What do you seek of the Lord today? For me, I desire to have a pure heart before God.

I seek the Lord for a pure heart so that I can demonstrate the fruits of His Holy Spirit to others. This includes to men, women, and children of all ages. A pure heart keeps me right with God and away from sin.

~”Blessed are the pure in heart, for they will see God.”~Matthew 5:8, NIV~

I am not perfect in any way. In order for me to be able to continue to demonstrate righteousness before God in my relationship with Him, I must pray and fast in private. Not all of my battles have to be fought openly. They are best won when fought in private.

As I fight my battles I fast. When I fast, I choose from a certain material thing or food to restrict myself from for the day, days, or weeks. Fasting keeps my heart pure before God so that I can be able to heart from Him more clearly.

One morning, I fasted from eating breakfast. I noticed that as I fasted from eating breakfast that I was hungry, but my heart for God was developing more and more as my desire for Him grew.

I did not eat until 12:00 pm noon on that day. I noticed that when I ate lunch on that day that the anointing of God was able to fall more directly on me and I could feel the presence of God all the more! Praise the Lord!

Besides fasting, I also pray before God. I mainly pray in the early morning hours of the day, like around 4 am or 5 am because that is how I fight and win my battles: early in the morning during my quiet times that I spend with the Lord.

I love to pray because that is one of the many ways that I am able to have fellowship with God. God loves for me to be able to come to Him, as His daughter, and to petition my prayer requests before Him.

I pray to the Lord with whatever He puts on my mind. I even pray for those, who do not like me. I pray even for my family to have salvation from God so that they can come to know Him and be saved. It is the will of God for everyone to be saved.

~”for, “Everyone who calls on the name of the Lord will be saved.”~Romans 10:13, NIV~

God wants everyone to fast to Him. God also wants everyone to bow before Him in prayer. God desires for EVERYONE to be saved. Are you willing to take that next step?

If so, then say this prayer with me:

Dear God,

I know that I am a sinner. I believe that Jesus died on the cross for my sins. I confess my sins to You and acknowledge my need for You in my life. Come into my heart and lead me as my personal Lord and Savior today.

In Jesus’ name,

Amen!

If you said this prayer, then you just entered into the kingdom of God as one of God’s children. You are a born-again son or daughter of God through the Lord Jesus Christ! God bless you in your journey with Him as you let Him lead you in fasting and prayer for all of the days of your life!

Stepping Into the Future

The sun is rising. It is a new season.

Recently, I had to let go of friends and remove them from my social media page. This was not an easy decision for me to make, but as I has learned, I cannot please everybody. I am only on this green earth to please the Lord and not for the approval of men or women.

~”For am I now seeking the approval of man, or of God? Or am I trying to please man? If I were still trying to please man, I would not be a servant of Christ.”~Galatians 1:10, ESV~

There were many reasons why I let these friends go from my social media page. I will not go into them here, but I will say that I am confident in Christ that I made the right decision because I felt such a peace about me after I removed these friends from my social media page.

Only Jesus can provide me with this peace that I felt. I have also realized that not every one who seems to be my friend is my friend. There are, “friends,” who have hidden motives and reasons as to why they want to be my friend. And this is where I have to be careful in the Lord.

~”Above all else, guard your heart, for everything you do flows from it.”~Proverbs 4:23, NIV~

Not everyone is for me. Not everyone prays for me nor has good intentions for me. This is where I have to set boundaries and move forward and into the future.

The boundary that I set with these friends was that I removed them and blocked them from having all contact with me. This included social media and phone. This boundary was not easy, but I did it; and it was for the best for the sake of my mental and spiritual health.

I prayed for these friends prior to removing them from my social media page. I also had to forgive them for what they did that hurt me. I also had to move on so that I could experience the healing power of God to the fullest.

My healing is my responsibility. God wants to heal me, but I have to make sure that I step out on faith and allow for Jehovah to heal me. Only the King of kings and Lord of lords can heal me. No person can fix me or force me to experience healing. Only God can heal me.

Once I forgave these friends, I moved forward and into the future. I know that God has a great plan for my future. I have written a book and it is now in the process of becoming published by 2021. I am studying to become a counselor at Liberty University. I am very proud of my accomplishments. And it is with that to say that not everyone can come with me and into the bright future that God has planned for me.

~”For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.”~Jeremiah 29:11, NIV~

And I move forward and into this bright and glorious future that Jehovah has planned for me. I cannot wait to see my future unfold in 2021 and beyond. Thank You Jesus! Hallelujah!

Lovely in the Lord Again!

I can love myself. I can love love myself again.

When I read my Bible or meditate upon a particular Scripture of my Bible, it is in those quiet moments that I am able to feel the presence and joy of God through His Holy Spirit. The joy of Jehovah is my strength.

Whenever I feel the joy of Jehovah, I can feel His great love for me too. As I feel the love of Jehovah, my desire to want to share the love of God with others around me grows too. Sharing the love of God with those in the world is caring for God’s people and those who are not God’s people.

~“For God so loved the world, that he gave his only Son, that whoever believes in him should not perish but have eternal life.”~John 3:16, ESV~

I do not love the world. I love those, who are in the world as I am a follower of Jesus who is also a traveler of this lost world through the ages now and the ages to come.

When I go to work Monday through Friday, I always make sure to share the love of God with everyone, who I am connected with so that they see, know, and recognize that I am a follower of Jesus too. This is so that everyone who knows me recognizes the Holy Spirit of Jehovah too.

I am commissioned to save the lost souls of this world. That is the commission of Jesus to me. Jesus desires for all who I come into contact with to come to know Him. That is also my prayer: that they may experience His great and deep love for themselves and be able to express this gift of love to their friends, their family members, and to others in the world too.

This gift of love is pure and holy. This gift of love is true and lovely. This gift of love is peace of Jehovah. Just as I can experience the holiness and goodness of God, you can too beloved!

~”Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable–if anything is excellent or praiseworthy–think about such things. Whatever you have learned or received or heard from me, or seen in me–put it into practice. And the God of peace will be with you.”~Philippians 4:8-9, NIV~

Whatever is lovely, you too can be lovely in the Lord! Whatever is excellent, you too can experience all excellence in El Shaddai! Whatever is noble, you too can be a noble king or queen of the King of kings and Lord of lords. To God be the glory!

So, whatever is lovely, put it all into practice today so that you too can be lovely in the Lord again!