I am Light (Through my First Book), in the Name of Jesus Christ

I am thankful. I am thankful to God, in the Name of Jesus Christ.

I recently lost my job and had to find another job quickly. Luckily, I found another job in the telemarketing field as God provided me with the job, in the Name of Jesus Christ.

~”And my God will meet all your needs according to the riches of his glory in Christ Jesus.” ~Philippians 4:19, NIV~

I wondered to God how He would provide the remaining funds that I need to get my book published. This is because I make monthly payments to get my book published so that the publishing process of my first book can continue, in the Name of Jesus Christ.

My first book to be published, “A Victory Song: Beneath the Veil,” is one of Godly courage and of valiance for Jesus. It is a story that tells about my life experiences, as a child of God with bipolar disorder, from my early childhood years up until the age of 28 years old. It is a story that serves to glorify God in spite of the challenges surrounding my bipolar disorder.

God uses my bipolar disorder diagnosis to glorify Him through my story, “A Victory Song: Beneath the Veil.” God uses my bipolar disorder diagnosis to showcase the love of God for all people. God uses my bipolar disorder diagnosis to share the light of His Son, Jesus Christ, with the multitudes, in the Name of Jesus Christ.

Now that my book will be back on track to be published by the end of 2021, I cannot wait to see how God will work in and through my first book and the publishing of my first book to bring glory to God as well as to divinely inspire the multitudes!

~”You are the light of the world. A city set on a hill cannot be hidden.”~ Matthew 5:14, ESV~

I am excited to see how the Lord will work in and through me to be His light to the multitudes, who read my book, in the Name of Jesus Christ! I am confident that God will use me to be His light to the multitudes, who read my book, in the Name of Jesus Christ!

To God be the glory in and through, “A Victory Song: Beneath the Veil,” in the Name of Jesus Christ!

The Lord Be Glorified (Through My Suffering), in the Name of Jesus Christ

I am thankful and grateful to God for the release of my first book, “A Victory Song: Beneath the Veil.”

As stated in previous blog posts, my first book, “A Victory Song: Beneath the Veil,” will be released by the end of 2021 (either November or December 2021 at the latest). It shall be a blessing to the multitudes, who read it, in the Name of Jesus Christ. God is good!

~”Then will appear in heaven the sign of the Son of Man, and then all the tribes of the earth will mourn, and they will see the Son of Man coming on the clouds of heaven with power and great glory.” ~Matthew 24:30, ESV~

I had an open vision this morning concerning my first book. I saw eleven stars in the sky, falling to all four corners of the earth in order to preach the Word of God that is my testimony to all four corners of the earth. This night vision that I had is very powerful!

I believe that the eleven stars represent the eleven chapters of my first book to be published and that the four corners of the earth represent the entire globe. This means that my book shall preach and teach as it goes global and reaches all of the earth, in the Name of Jesus Christ.

My book is a memoir about my struggle with bipolar disorder and how I overcame it through the help of my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ (from a spiritual standpoint and not a physical standpoint), and through Christian counseling from a Christian counselor of my church.

In my book, I cover how my bipolar disorder diagnosis is like my own cross that I am to carry every day. I explain that my mental illness is being used by God to bring Him glory, as well as His Son, Jesus Christ, and how He sees fit for eternity. My book covers my early childhood years up until the end of 2019.

I also explain in my book how even though my mental illness incurable, God is still able to use me, by the power of His Holy Spirit, to bring His Son, Jesus, glory. It is incurable, in this life, but I am already healed because I believe that when I go to Heaven someday that I will be free from the suffering caused by my bipolar disorder.

Also, my mental illness has environmental and biological factors, which is why it is not curable in this lifetime, but I will and am healed when I reach Heaven and into Eternity.

I pray that the testimony of my first book shall bless you to know Jesus and His heart deeper and more intimately through the struggle of my mental illness. It is through the struggle and out of my pain from the circumstances surrounding my mental illness that God is glorified, in the Name of Jesus Christ.

To God be the glory!

The Impact of God and My First Book

A couple of days ago, I created a blog post that explains that my first book, “A Victory Song: Beneath the Veil,” is going to be published by the end of 2021. My publishing specialist for Christian Faith Publishing told me this a few days ago. I thank the Lord for this good news!

~”And how are they to preach unless they are sent? As it is written, “How beautiful are the feet of those who preach the good news!”~Romans 10:15, ESV~

My book is a memoir. It is a testimony of the work of Jesus Christ in my life, as a child of God with bipolar disorder. The span of my book goes from my early childhood up until my twenty-eighth year and testifies of how the Lord Jesus Christ is working in and through my life through the hardships that I face, as a child of God with bipolar disorder.

I mention in the book that my mental illness does not define me because of the salvation power that I have in Jesus Christ. Even though bipolar disorder is a part of who I am because I was born with it, it does not define me because of my relationship with Jesus Christ.

I mention several topics of discussion in my first book. The first topic that I will mention here very briefly (because I do not want to give too much away without you going to read the book first) is my relationship with my mother, who also has a diagnosed mental illness. I go into depth of my relationship with her as well as the biological and environmental factors of the results of living with a parent diagnosed with mental illness that affected me, mainly during my adolescent years.

I will not mention the biological and environmental factors of my mental illness because this gives you, as the reader, the empowerment and desire to want to find out more of the work of God in my life (how he worked in and through those various biological and environmental factors of my life), so that you can GO and READ my book and not ask me questions now!

I also talk about how my mother introduced me into a relationship with Jesus Christ in the first part of the book before my mental illness became more noticeable in my adolescent years. I talk about how happy and joyful that my early childhood years were with the Lord because He really started to test me in how serious I was in following Him after my adolescent years and years in college as a result of my mental health diagnosis.

~”Count it all joy, my brothers, when you meet trials of various kinds.”~James 1:2, ESV~

This is because my mother greatly influenced me and my walk with God during my early childhood years. She faced many challenges as a result of the circumstances surrounding her mental illness and as a result, this greatly impacted my walk with the Lord many years later.

My story of, “A Victory Song: Beneath the Veil,” is one of boldness and great courage in the Lord. It is one of good times spent with the Lord Jesus and bad times spent with the Lord Jesus. It all depicts my faith in Him through the various struggles over the years surrounding my mental illness.

I am very grateful to the Lord for being able to use me, in spite of the the challenges that I faced surrounding my bipolar disorder diagnosis, and how the Holy Spirit of God was able to put His Word in my mouth to explain clearly how God brought me closer to the heart of Jesus as a result of my mental illness.

Grateful and Thankful to God that My First Book Will Be Published, in the Name of Jesus Christ

I am grateful. I am grateful to God for the blessings that He has bestowed upon my life. 

Lately, I have been in a thankful and grateful mood to the Lord God. This is mainly because my first book, “A Victory Song: Beneath the Veil,” is going to be published very soon (sometime between November and December 2021). 

~”Continue steadfastly in prayer, being watchful in it with thanksgiving.”~ Colossians 4:2, ESV~ 

As soon as the publisher, who I am publishing my book with, knows of the exact date of when my book will be published, then she will inform me immediately. The fact that my first ever book is going to be published soon gives me hope that only the Holy Spirit of God can provide  that it will touch the multitudes, in the Name and by the Power of Jesus Christ. 

My book is a memoir that describes my walk with the Lord as well as my struggle with bipolar disorder as I have walked with Jehovah over the years (specifically from my early childhood years up until the end of 2018 is when this book is written). I hit many topics in my book, such as setting boundaries, seasonal friendships and going on missions trips abroad all the while amidst my struggle with bipolar disorder. 

This book, which will be birthed by the end of 2021, took countless hours of writing and praying and praying in the Holy Spirit (tongues and in my native tongue) as the Holy Spirit of God led me to write and to take out and add parts to my testimony, which is my story that gives all of the glory to Jesus Christ.  

One of the main points of discussion that I talk about extensively in my book is my relationship with my mother, who is also diagnosed with a mental illness (I do not talk about what her mental illness is in the book as I want the focus to be on my mental illness and not so much about my mother as it is about me). I talk about how I overcame the struggles surrounding my relationship with my mother through the power of forgiveness and the forgiveness of Jesus Christ through the challenges that I struggle, as a daughter of the King with bipolar disorder.

My book is intended to bring and to spread awareness related to bipolar disorder as well as to provide safe words for those struggling with bipolar disorder of encouragement that God loves them. My book is intended to bring blessings to those with bipolar disorder so that they can feel a sense of comfort in the midst of their struggle with bipolar disorder. My book is intended to surround those with bipolar disorder with the love of God that is Jesus Christ so that they can feel a sense of peace that bipolar disorder is the cross that God’s children are meant to carry for those who struggle with it for the purpose and plans that God wants them to fulfill in this lifetime. 

~”Enter his gates with thanksgiving, and his courts with praise! Give thanks to him; bless his name!”~ Psalm 100:4 ESV~ 

I pray that the Lord God is able to use my book, “A Victory Song: Beneath the Veil,” for His glory as the Gospel of Jesus Christ is advanced in Atlanta, Georgia and beyond. God bless you!  

Still My Heart, in the Name of Jesus Christ

God is good. God is good in that He allows for all things to work together for my good and for the good of those who serve Him.

~”And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.”~Romans 8:28, NIV~

A couple of months ago, I wrote a blog post of which I explained how I was put in a hospital twice. I was dealing with things that God allowed for me to go through in order to test my character, my faithfulness to Him and others around me, and my trust in God in dire circumstances. Now, I have become a stronger person because of these dire circumstances that the Lord allowed me to go through months ago.

I have explained on social media that I am diagnosed with bipolar disorder. I was hospitalized (once in November 2020 and another time in March 2021) in circumstances related to my bipolar disorder. I was even dealing with thoughts of suicide, which was not like me at the time that I was going through these emotional ups and downs. I even thought that God and others around me did not care about me nor did they love me. These were ALL LIES from the enemy that he was using to test my relationship and faithfulness to God.

I remember calling two good friends that I knew from my church as I was going through the time of being hospitalized. They provided me with encouragement, love, and support in order for me to see two things: that I am loved and that I am enough.

For me, to remember that I am loved and that I am enough in spite of the lies that I was thinking at the time was the encouragement and uplifting messages that I needed to hear in spite of the thoughts of suicide and ungrounded actions in my emotions that I was contemplating and learning how to deal with at the time. God is good!

I remember shortly after I was hospitalized in March 2021 that a friend from church taught me two spiritual disciplines that have empowered me to cope effectively with the depressive episodes of my bipolar disorder: they include to pray for at least one hour or more per day with a scented candle lit up, or to journal my thoughts, pray, and light up a scented candle. The purpose of the scented candle is to bring peace of God to my emotions and to still my heart and my mind in the right place so that my thinking is rational as I pray and so that the depressive episodes of my bipolar disorder are not as severe. I thank God for using this friend to teach me these spiritual disciplines because they have helped me tremendously in my prayer life and in my walk with God.

One spiritual discipline that I taught myself is to go on nature walks, either in parks or in my neighborhood. Nature walks have helped me to enjoy God more, seek and His presence as I walk with Him, and enjoy the beauty and creation of nature that the Lord created with His hands. Nature walking has also helped me to cope with the depressive episode and automatic thoughts that I think in spite of my bipolar disorder because it has helped to keep my mind focused on Heavenly things and not focus on the pain that comes from my bipolar disorder.

 ~”Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things. Whatever you have learned or received or heard from me, or seen in me—put it into practice. And the God of peace will be with you.” ~Philippians 4:8-9, NIV~

All of these things that I have been through have taught me to be strong and to be still and know that God is my peace in the midst of my bipolar disorder and the depressive episodes and automatic thoughts that surround it. I am thankful for my church family and for the good that He has used my church family to teach me how to be more rooted and grounded in my faith as I seek more of the Lord and remain faithful to Him in spite of the struggles that I face (which are daily) in spite of my bipolar disorder. God is good! God is good! Amen.

The Birthing Process of My First Book

My 1st book, “A Victory Song,” will be published by the end of 2021.

I recently had a conversation with my publishing specialist of my 1st book and she informed me that, “A Victory Song,” should be published by the end of 2021. I praise the Lord for this good news!

~”And how are they to preach unless they are sent? As it is written, “How beautiful are the feet of those who preach the good news!”~Romans 10:15, ESV~

I began the process of writing this book after the Holy Spirit of God led me to do so in 2018 after attending an all-woman’s conference with a good colleague that I know (It was not a Christian conference, but it was an all-woman’s conference). I made a declaration in front of the entire audience, who was watching me, after other women presented their dreams of what they hope to do in the future.

I made a declaration that I was going to publish my 1st book in front of the entire audience. The women in the audience beamed at me as I made this prophetic declaration. It came across as inspiring for the other women in the audience.

After making this prophetic decree, another woman approached me in the audience and told me that she wanted to connect me with another colleague, who was to be my book coach!

I have been connected to this book coach since the Summer 2018 and she has impacted me to write the message behind my book. I am grateful that God allowed for us to cross paths and that the Holy Spirit was able to use her to help me to guide me to write the content and put together and outline for my 1st book.

Now, it is three years later (Summer 2021) and I am in the publishing process of my 1st book. God has been faithful through the time and effort spent to write the book and the people and Christian publishing company that He has put me in touch with to get, “A Victory Song,” published. His plans for my life and how He intends to use this book to reach and minister to the multitudes is marvelous and beyond my understanding!

~”For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” ~Jeremiah 29:11, NIV~

The Lord connected me with Christian Faith Publishing, a Christian self-publishing company that is going to publish, “A Victory Song.” My book is now in the cover design stage of the publishing process and should be published by the end of 2021, per my publishing specialist for Christian Faith Publishing.

I am really excited to see how the Lord will use this book to minister to the multitudes and bring His people into an even stronger relationship with God and those who do not know His Son, Jesus, into a relationship with the Lord. I thank God for being the main Source of divine inspiration behind my book and cannot wait to share the message of my book with all of you once it is published!

**Please continue to keep the publishing process of, “A Victory Song,” in your prayers and that the Lord will allow it to be published by the end of 2021, per what my publishing specialist for Christian Faith Publishing told me. Thank you kindly everyone and peace and blessings!

Every Victory Step

Recently, I took a huge step: I will be taking the necessary exam in order for me to become a National Certified Counselor.

While I do not graduate until the Summer 2022, this step that I must take will count towards my graduation and me getting my license for me to become a Licensed Professional Counselor (LPC).

I am very excited to see how the Holy Spirit of God will work in and through me to study for this exam and to take it by November 2021. The Lord has been very faithful to me over the years. Ever since I began this journey to become a counselor, I have seen the hand of God at work in my life in many ways.

~”There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under the heavens: He has made everything beautiful in its time. He has also set eternity in the human heart; yet no one can fathom what God has done from beginning to end. “~Ecclesiastes 3:1, 11, NIV~

The Lord God has given me a disciplined heart and mind for me to complete this exam. In order for me to pass this exam, I have to be certain that I study and do my best for this exam so that I can get the required license for me to practice counseling in the future and become and Licensed Professional Counselor. This shall happen in the divine timing of God.

I just began my classes for the Summer 2021. I am excited to see how the Lord will move in my Summer classes as I take them and use the knowledge necessary to study for this exam. Completion of my Summer classes will count as a stepping stone for me to get to the next level that God is taking me.

The next level is glorious. The next level that God is taking me is so glorious, in the Name of Jesus Christ.

I lift my hands to the sky and thank the Lord for the good that He is doing in and through my life and for bringing me this far in my journey to become a counselor. Praise the Lord!

As I lift my hands to the sky, I praise the Lord for every victory step that He is taking me to get into the next level and become a counselor. Praise the Lord!

I cannot wait for the celebration that will take place once I receive the degree from Liberty University and the license for me to become a Licensed Professional Counselor (LPC). The hand of God is with me every step. Every victory step. Amen!

As a Woman of the Lord

My new life is starting. My new life is starting now because Christ makes all things new for me.

~”Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation. The old has passed away; behold, the new has come.”~2 Corinthians 5:17, English Standard Version~

Lately, my heart and my mind have been pondering whether or not to begin again. When I say to begin again, I mean that I am putting away childish things behind me so that I can walk into the purpose, the plans, and the destiny that God has ordained for me. My prayer is for me to walk as a woman of God and not after the things of this world.

Jesus is coming back soon for His Kingdom and I have to be ready for Him to come and receive me as I receive Him, as the woman of the Lord that Jehovah is calling me to receive. I must receive Christ just as He has always received me, in the name of Jesus Christ.

I am going to start this process by making new friends and praying for the Holy Spirit to open up my heart and my mind to meet new people. For a long time, I have not been open to meeting new people because of previous bad experiences with people that I have not healed, from a spiritual and emotional standpoint.

Starting the end of this month and July 2021, I am going to open up my heart and my mind to meet new people and to new experiences, in the name of Jesus Christ. My prayer is also that God will bless these friendships and that they will be lifelong connections, in the name of Jesus Christ. My prayer is that these new friends will be blessed by my warmth and presence that the Holy Spirit of God has gifted me with to bless and be a blessing to them.

I have to pray for the Lord to use me to touch lives. I have to pray for the Lord to bless my hands to be kind and tenderhearted to the multitudes around me. I have to pray for the Lord to use me to bless my heart and mind to do good in the midst of the chaos in this world.

~”No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us.”~Romans 8:37, English Standard Version~

***Please pray for me friends and that the Lord God will open up my heart and my new mind to new people and experiences that are Godly and that the new people and new experiences will receive me with Godliness and agape love. Thank you kindly everyone and blessings!

Come Holy Spirit, Come

It has been almost one year since the Coronavirus pandemic began in March 2020.

My birthday was a few weeks ago (March 25, 2021), and I turned thirty years old. I marked this year as the year of the beginning of a new decade, new friends, and new memories for me in spite of the pandemic.

Lately, I have been opening myself to try new things so that I can meet new people. One of these things was that I signed up for a Connect Group at Passion City Church. I did this with the hope of meeting new people and expanding my social circle of Christian friends, who I can grow and do life with in my own life.

~”A friend loves at all times, and a brother is born for adversity.”~Proverbs 17:17, New International Version~

Now, do not get me wrong. I am not leaving my home church, First Baptist Church of Atlanta because I have a God-given responsibility to be the light and love of Christ through greeting and other church-related activities at this church. I am just trying out the Connect Group at Passion City Church in a few weeks so that I can expand my social network of Christian friends in my social circle and grow in the Lord with them.

I also made an account on the website, Hey Vina! I created this account with the hope of meeting new friends, who have the same hobbies, common interests, and common goals as myself.

I have not met people on this website yet, but hope to soon so that I can be the light and love of God to my friends, who I hope to meet and make, through this app.

~“For God so loved the world, that he gave his only Son, that whoever believes in him should not perish but have eternal life.”~John 3:16, English Standard Version~

Besides looking to expand on my social network of friends, I am using this season of life to focus on growing myself inside and out in many ways. One of these ways is that I am working on editing my first book, “A Victory Song.”

This book, “A Victory Song,” is in the process of going through the second round of edits that are needed before it moves into the second stage of the publishing process of my book, which is the page design stage of the book. My hope and prayer is that, “A Victory Song,” will captivate and touch many lives in the Atlanta community and outside of my Atlanta community. As I put my heart and my soul in investing in this project, I hope that it inspires many lives to turn to Jesus Christ.

Another way that I am focusing on growing on myself is through writing to inspire. The only time that I write is if I am inspired to write. I write to glorify God first in my life as I let His Holy Spirit use me as His vessel to inspire many on this journey of my life.

A third way that I am focusing on growing myself is through setting boundaries in terms of spending and saving money. Recently, I set a budget to shop for clothes and items that I needed for the upcoming seasons of Spring and Summer 2021. I bought three of each item (three tops, three dresses, and three pairs of shoes) at the clothing store. Even though it was tempting for me to buy more than what I needed at the time, I stuck to what I originally planned in terms of my budget amount. It was worth it as the Holy Spirit of God is guiding me to be more practical, sensible, and discerning with my money.

God has been so good in my life lately! And it is with as I end this blog post that I challenge you: In what ways has God prompted you to expand your social network and work on growing in your walk and relationship with Him? All comments are welcomed. God bless you!

He Restores My Soul (For His Name’s Sake)

These past three and a half months have been a whirlwind!

Just in case my Facebook and Instagram followers have been wondering why I have not been posting on social media as much, I am thankful to God that I am back online and that the Lord is healing me.

I was recently hospitalized in March 2021. This was my second time that I was hospitalized since November 2020. While I choose to not disclose the reasons as to why or what led me to be hospitalized, I would like to extend my utmost thanks to my two friends (I will not disclose their names on this blog post) for praying and interceding for me. I even thank YOU especially for praying for me to not give up on my life or on my hopes and dreams for the future because God has great plans for me!

~”For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.”~Jeremiah 29:11, NIV~

Before I went into the hospital in March 2021, a Christian prophet spoke into my life that many people that I know would leave me and betray me in this season (this past season). This same prophet also prophesized to me that I would be called to walk alone (this does not mean that I cut myself off from my loved ones——it just means that I am doing the Lord’s work by walking in His divine will for me as I choose to walk alone with Him due to events that are out of my control and that are divinely orchestrated by the will of God to happen for His glory).

One of the reasons why I believe that God allowed me to be hospitalized a second time was for me to draw closer to Him as I soaked in the presence of the Lord during my time at the hospital. It is my conviction that during my second time at the hospital that the Lord wanted me to receive a sense of rest, but at the same time to enter into a sense of peace with who I am, as a child of God.

As I entered into the rest of the Lord for a second time at the hospital, I carried my Bible everywhere. I did not approach people and talk to them as I wanted to talk to them. I only talked to them as the Holy Spirit of God led me not only so that I could be a witness for them, but so that they could receive an encouraging Scripture or Scriptures that would empower them to get through the harsh time that or be equipped to handle the baggage that they were dealing with at the time.

There were a couple of instances, in which people at the hospital, would gather around me solely because they wanted to hear me read from the Bible to them. I read from the Bible to the people at the hospital and they would receive it (most of them) with joy and gladness in their hearts. A couple of people from the hospital even asked me to borrow my Bible so that they could read it themselves at the hospital. I believe that people from the hospital asked me if they could read my Bible because they were hungry for the Word of God and wanted to be encouraged.

I am glad that the Lord was able to use me during the time and season that He allowed for me to be hospitalized so that I could be a testimony and witness to the doctors and counselors and be the light and love of Christ while at the hospital.

Even while at the hospital, I did not give up praying for my hopes and dreams (such as, to graduate with my Master of Arts degree in Clinical Mental Health Counseling, get my first book published, etc.), or for my friends (even though I don’t have many close friends ) and family. There were moments in which I would walk around the hospital and pray out loud or to myself as the Holy Spirit of God led me. Those moments were wonderfully relaxing as I remained in the presence and rest of the Lord.

~”And he said, “My presence will go with you, and I will give you rest.””~Exodus 33:14, ESV~

~”There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love. We love because he first loved us.”~1 John 4:18-19, NIV~

I bless my friends. I bless my family. I bless those who did not betray me or leave me alone when mostly everyone did choose to betray me and to leave me alone. I speak the love of God over you and your families, husbands, wives, and children as I end this blog post, which much love from the Father and myself. God bless you!