To Walk with the Father (Hand in Hand/By and By)

What do you seek of the Lord today? For me, I desire to have a pure heart before God.

I seek the Lord for a pure heart so that I can demonstrate the fruits of His Holy Spirit to others. This includes to men, women, and children of all ages. A pure heart keeps me right with God and away from sin.

~”Blessed are the pure in heart, for they will see God.”~Matthew 5:8, NIV~

I am not perfect in any way. In order for me to be able to continue to demonstrate righteousness before God in my relationship with Him, I must pray and fast in private. Not all of my battles have to be fought openly. They are best won when fought in private.

As I fight my battles I fast. When I fast, I choose from a certain material thing or food to restrict myself from for the day, days, or weeks. Fasting keeps my heart pure before God so that I can be able to heart from Him more clearly.

One morning, I fasted from eating breakfast. I noticed that as I fasted from eating breakfast that I was hungry, but my heart for God was developing more and more as my desire for Him grew.

I did not eat until 12:00 pm noon on that day. I noticed that when I ate lunch on that day that the anointing of God was able to fall more directly on me and I could feel the presence of God all the more! Praise the Lord!

Besides fasting, I also pray before God. I mainly pray in the early morning hours of the day, like around 4 am or 5 am because that is how I fight and win my battles: early in the morning during my quiet times that I spend with the Lord.

I love to pray because that is one of the many ways that I am able to have fellowship with God. God loves for me to be able to come to Him, as His daughter, and to petition my prayer requests before Him.

I pray to the Lord with whatever He puts on my mind. I even pray for those, who do not like me. I pray even for my family to have salvation from God so that they can come to know Him and be saved. It is the will of God for everyone to be saved.

~”for, “Everyone who calls on the name of the Lord will be saved.”~Romans 10:13, NIV~

God wants everyone to fast to Him. God also wants everyone to bow before Him in prayer. God desires for EVERYONE to be saved. Are you willing to take that next step?

If so, then say this prayer with me:

Dear God,

I know that I am a sinner. I believe that Jesus died on the cross for my sins. I confess my sins to You and acknowledge my need for You in my life. Come into my heart and lead me as my personal Lord and Savior today.

In Jesus’ name,

Amen!

If you said this prayer, then you just entered into the kingdom of God as one of God’s children. You are a born-again son or daughter of God through the Lord Jesus Christ! God bless you in your journey with Him as you let Him lead you in fasting and prayer for all of the days of your life!

Stepping Into the Future

The sun is rising. It is a new season.

Recently, I had to let go of friends and remove them from my social media page. This was not an easy decision for me to make, but as I has learned, I cannot please everybody. I am only on this green earth to please the Lord and not for the approval of men or women.

~”For am I now seeking the approval of man, or of God? Or am I trying to please man? If I were still trying to please man, I would not be a servant of Christ.”~Galatians 1:10, ESV~

There were many reasons why I let these friends go from my social media page. I will not go into them here, but I will say that I am confident in Christ that I made the right decision because I felt such a peace about me after I removed these friends from my social media page.

Only Jesus can provide me with this peace that I felt. I have also realized that not every one who seems to be my friend is my friend. There are, “friends,” who have hidden motives and reasons as to why they want to be my friend. And this is where I have to be careful in the Lord.

~”Above all else, guard your heart, for everything you do flows from it.”~Proverbs 4:23, NIV~

Not everyone is for me. Not everyone prays for me nor has good intentions for me. This is where I have to set boundaries and move forward and into the future.

The boundary that I set with these friends was that I removed them and blocked them from having all contact with me. This included social media and phone. This boundary was not easy, but I did it; and it was for the best for the sake of my mental and spiritual health.

I prayed for these friends prior to removing them from my social media page. I also had to forgive them for what they did that hurt me. I also had to move on so that I could experience the healing power of God to the fullest.

My healing is my responsibility. God wants to heal me, but I have to make sure that I step out on faith and allow for Jehovah to heal me. Only the King of kings and Lord of lords can heal me. No person can fix me or force me to experience healing. Only God can heal me.

Once I forgave these friends, I moved forward and into the future. I know that God has a great plan for my future. I have written a book and it is now in the process of becoming published by 2021. I am studying to become a counselor at Liberty University. I am very proud of my accomplishments. And it is with that to say that not everyone can come with me and into the bright future that God has planned for me.

~”For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.”~Jeremiah 29:11, NIV~

And I move forward and into this bright and glorious future that Jehovah has planned for me. I cannot wait to see my future unfold in 2021 and beyond. Thank You Jesus! Hallelujah!

Lovely in the Lord Again!

I can love myself. I can love love myself again.

When I read my Bible or meditate upon a particular Scripture of my Bible, it is in those quiet moments that I am able to feel the presence and joy of God through His Holy Spirit. The joy of Jehovah is my strength.

Whenever I feel the joy of Jehovah, I can feel His great love for me too. As I feel the love of Jehovah, my desire to want to share the love of God with others around me grows too. Sharing the love of God with those in the world is caring for God’s people and those who are not God’s people.

~“For God so loved the world, that he gave his only Son, that whoever believes in him should not perish but have eternal life.”~John 3:16, ESV~

I do not love the world. I love those, who are in the world as I am a follower of Jesus who is also a traveler of this lost world through the ages now and the ages to come.

When I go to work Monday through Friday, I always make sure to share the love of God with everyone, who I am connected with so that they see, know, and recognize that I am a follower of Jesus too. This is so that everyone who knows me recognizes the Holy Spirit of Jehovah too.

I am commissioned to save the lost souls of this world. That is the commission of Jesus to me. Jesus desires for all who I come into contact with to come to know Him. That is also my prayer: that they may experience His great and deep love for themselves and be able to express this gift of love to their friends, their family members, and to others in the world too.

This gift of love is pure and holy. This gift of love is true and lovely. This gift of love is peace of Jehovah. Just as I can experience the holiness and goodness of God, you can too beloved!

~”Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable–if anything is excellent or praiseworthy–think about such things. Whatever you have learned or received or heard from me, or seen in me–put it into practice. And the God of peace will be with you.”~Philippians 4:8-9, NIV~

Whatever is lovely, you too can be lovely in the Lord! Whatever is excellent, you too can experience all excellence in El Shaddai! Whatever is noble, you too can be a noble king or queen of the King of kings and Lord of lords. To God be the glory!

So, whatever is lovely, put it all into practice today so that you too can be lovely in the Lord again!

Like a Flower Garden

I woke up this morning and I prayed. I prayed to God and He answered just as I have been praying, according to my faith.

~”So faith comes from hearing, and hearing through the word of Christ.”~Romans 10:17, ESV~

I have prayers. I have prayers that I desire for the Lord to answer for me. I desire for Him to get my book published by 2021. I desire for Him to save my family members so that they too can become sons and daughters of God. I desire for Him to work in the lives of my friends.

I came before God, for this past week, with the following prayer request: that my friends would begin to reach out to me. One of my friends from church, who I had not spoken to for a long time, reached out to me and wanted to check on me to see how I was doing.

I was very surprised that she reached out to me. I told her in the message that I am going through a lot at the moment, but that I am managing well. It meant a lot to me to hear from this friend. I thank God for using this friend to reach out to me to check on me. Praise the Lord. Thank You Jesus!

~”A friend loves at all times, and a brother is born for a time of adversity.”~Proverbs 17:17, NIV~

God answers our prayers in the most interesting and mysterious ways. I was not expecting for God to answer this prayer by showing me that friends do care about me. I am thankful to God for the friends that care about me and that have not left me.

I have had friends come into my life. Sometimes, for a season and for a reason. Other times, it was for a longer period of time. Oftentimes, it is for a lifetime. I trust God with the people that He puts into my life and that He will tenderly speak to them, tenderly care for then, and tenderly love them. God tenderly loves His people.

God tenderly loves me. One of the reasons that I believe that God tenderly loves me is because He tenderly demonstrates His love for me through His people, such as the friend that reached out to me yesterday.

The enemy has been trying to attack me with lies, such as that my friends do not care about me and that I am not loved or significant. I have to keep telling myself, as I pray, that I am special to God, that God loves and and sees me as significant as well as my friends too. I am loved. Indeed.

~”There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love. We love because he first loved us.”~1 John 4:18-19, NIV~

I am loved. I am loved because God loves me. My friends love me too and I am thankful to God for putting them in my life like flowers in a flower garden. Thank You Jesus for my friends!

What about you? What prayers and petitions do you have for the Lord today? You can come to Him with anything and He will answer you. It may not be in the way that you expect, but He will answer you! Hallelujah and amen!

~”Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.”~Philippians 4:6-7, NIV~

I Shall Have a Crown!

I walk. I walk out of the darkness and into the marvelous light of Jesus Christ.

Jesus is my Light. Jesus is my Salvation. I have no reason to fear anything that the enemy tries to throw at me in order to be tested. I have already overcome the darkness, in the name of Jesus Christ.

~”No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us.”~Romans 8:37, ESV~

I have been tested a lot lately. God has been allowing me to go through many valleys so that I can prove to Him that I am not only His daughter: I am a conqueror sent from the Lord. Mountaintops are my portion as God makes a way for me to escape the valleys.

The Holy Spirit of God has fallen afresh on me during my quiet moments of prayer with Him. It is in these moments that I can feel the presence of God even stronger than I have in the past. Every promise of God shall come to pass. This is because I believe in God as I trust in Him to fulfill His Word to me.

I have to stand upon the Word of God, as my defense. I have to stand upon the Word of God, as my Peace in the midst of the storms of life that come my way. I have to stand. I have to stand up and stand upon the Word of God. I will not fall, in the name of Jesus Christ.

~”For no word from God will ever fail.”~Luke 1:37, NIV~

A few weeks ago, I got a prophesy from a good friend that I know, who is gifted in the gift of prophecy. He told me to believe that every promise from God would come to pass and that I needed to spend more time in the Word of God.

I obeyed the prophet and what He told me to do and lately, I have seen many promises come to pass that I would not imagine come to pass.

Some of these promises include that God showed me that my first book that I have written (it is not published yet, but hopefully, it will be published by July 2021), will be made into a movie. This is because the Christian publisher, who is publishing my book, wants to make my book into a movie.

I had a vision in my prayer time with the Lord about one year ago that my first book was made into a movie and that all of my friends from my church watched it. I cannot wait for this vision to come to pass! I am trusting in God to fulfill this promise to me, in His timing.

~”Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight.”~Proverbs 3:5-6, NIV~

The Lord is faithful to me. I am His princess only to be elevated to a queen. I shall have a crown. I shall have a crown, in the name of Jesus Christ! To God be the glory! Hallelujah!

What about you? After reading my story, do you trust in God to fulfill His promises to you and to give you a crown of glory today?

Altogether Beautiful

I see hope. I see a new hope in Christ rising.

Just as I see a new day dawning through the sun rise, I see a new hope in Jehovah rising for me. I praise the Lord for this new day that He has allowed to birth forth in me as I make today count all joy in the Lord.

~”He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds.”~Psalm 147:3, NIV~

I believe that Jehovah God is my Healer. Even though I am not healed of Bi Polar Disorder in the physical world, I believe and claim the victory that I am already healed by the love of God that ministers agape love to my heart and to my soul. His love heals my deepest spiritual wounds.

I believe that Jehovah God is my Redeemer. His only Begotten Son has redeemed me in spite of my Bi Polar Disorder. God can use any broken person in the midst of their brokenness that he or she is experiencing. This does not make me the only exception. God is, was, and is already using me in spite of my Bi Polar Disorder to further advance His Kingdom and glory. To God be the glory, always and forever!

I believe that God sent Jesus to be my Savior. I cannot save the world or those who live in this world through works alone. Only God through His only begotten Son who lives in me, King Jesus, can save the wounded, the broken, and the lost souls of this world.

~”For God so loved the world, that he gave his only Son, that whoever believes in him should not perish but have eternal life.”~John 3:16, ESV~

I am more than a conqueror of my brokenness associated with my Bi Polar Disorder. I have already overcome my broken state of my emotions associated with my Bi Polar Disorder. I thank God that His only Begotten Son, Jesus, can use a broken and wounded soul, such as myself, to minister to others, both the lost of this world and the saved in Christ.

I also know that God so loved me. Jesus loves me more than I could ever love myself. It is Jesus who teaches me to love every broken and wounded part of myself in spite of my Bi Polar Disorder. I am not perfect. I need Jesus. I need Him every day of my life to help me in spite of my Bi Polar Disorder.

God is my Helper. Jesus is my Helper. His Holy Spirit is my Comforter. I praise the Lord for allowing me to have Bi Polar Disorder. If I did not have Bi Polar Disorder, I probably would not seek the Lord or His Kingdom in the darkest moments of my emotions associated with my Bi Polar Disorder.

My Bi Polar Disorder diagnosis teaches me to fully depend upon God. My Bi Polar Disorder teaches me to pray to the Lord when my emotions feel weak. My Bi Polar Disorder teaches me to wholeheartedly surrender my emotions to God so that He can use them to fully express the love of my Savior to those in the world, such compassion, forgiveness, kindness, and grace.

~”The elder to the elect lady and her children, whom I love in truth, and not only I, but also all who know the truth, because of the truth that abides in us and will be with us forever: Grace, mercy, and peace will be with us, from God the Father and from Jesus Christ the Father’s Son, in truth and love.”~2 John 1:1-3, ESV~

And just as I see the sun rising over the rooftops, I see a new love for the Lord rising up in me. I rise above, being more than a conqueror, from the ashes today. Hallelujah! To God be the glory! Amen!

Loved and Wonderfully Made

I am praying. I am praying for a miracle.

About two weeks ago, I thought that the Lord healed me of Bi Polar Disorder. It turns out that God did not heal me. This greatly discouraged me. I felt as if the enemy and all of the forces of hell defeated me.

~”For we do not wrestle against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the cosmic powers over this present darkness, against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly places.”~Ephesians 6:12, ESV~

I know that Bi Polar Disorder is not of God. I also know that God can use any physical or mental illness, or any good or bad thing, for His good and greater glory. I had to surrender all of me to the Lord so that He could use me in spite of my mental illness.

I had a dream recently. One of my good friends from my church was praying to the Lord and wearing a white dress and kneeling before the Lord as she was gazing up at the sky. She saw stars falling from the sky and the sky was very red. The church that the both of us go to was burning on fire with the Holy Spirit. She was crying out to God with tears coming down her face. She reached an outstretched hand towards me and said with tears in her eyes, “Don’t go away!.” as she saw a hand of the enemy pull me away from her and into a dark place.

I believe that when she said this statement that God was using my friend to warn me to not go into a dark place and to not give into the dark forces of the enemy in spite of my Bi Polar Disorder. The enemy is trying to use my Bi Polar Disorder for his way and God is trying to use my Bi Polar Disorder for His good.

I cried out to God in my bedroom a few days ago with the prayer that God would heal me. I know that God sees me as beautiful. I know that God sees me as loved and wonderfully made. It is hard for me to accept that about myself sometimes because I choose, at times, to see myself through the lenses of my Bi Polar Disorder and not how God sees me.

~”I will praise thee; for I am fearfully and wonderfully made: marvellous are thy works; and that my soul knoweth right well. “~Psalm 139:14, KJV~

It is in these moments that I can choose: to see myself as loved and wonderfully made, or to see myself negatively and in the way that the enemy wants me to see myself. I choose to see myself as a loved child of the King of kings and Lord of lords so that the name of Christ is magnified all the more!

God loves me. God so loved me that He sent Jesus to die for me and rise from the grave for me. I have a reason to praise the Lord for my salvation today! He died for me so that I can have the gift of salvation through His grace!

~”For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith–and this is not from yourselves, it is the gift of God–not by works, so that no one can boast.”~Ephesians 2:8-9, NIV~

I am thankful to God that I have salvation in His only Begotten Son. The King of kings and Lord of lords is my Savior. I have salvation in Christ today! It is for this reason that I can rejoice because I am loved and wonderfully made!

What about you? Whether you are reading this blog post out of curiosity, or because you too have a physical or mental illness, or if the Holy Spirit of God led you to this blog post on purpose, my hope is that you will take away after reading this that you are loved. Loved. So Loved. And wonderfully made.

Agape Love/Forgiveness

I love to walk. I love to walk with the Lord.

Walking with the Lord has been an incredible and rewarding journey for me. I learn a lot and something new each day from God. His Holy Spirit teaches me the things that are of Him and the things that are not of Him so that I know the difference.

~”But the Helper, the Holy Spirit, whom the Father will send in my name, he will teach you all things and bring to your remembrance all that I have said to you.”~John 14:26, ESV~

Knowing the difference is the key for me in my walk the the Lord so that I know right from wrong, good from evil, and Godly from ungodly. Every day is a learning experience for me from the Lord.

Right now, I am learning to walk in love with others. Recently, a co-worker said some really mean remarks about me openly and indirectly. She called me, “another random person.”

I immediately stopped what I was doing and heard what the co-worker said about me. I felt sad, but then I stopped to think about what the Word of God says in regards to feelings and convictions.

~”Good sense makes one slow to anger, and it is his glory to overlook an offense.”~Proverbs 19:11, ESV~

Of course, the remarks that the co-worker said were wrong. But, it is in the glory of the Lord to overlook an offense. God commands us to quickly forgive and overlook offense so that we can be slow to anger.

I remembered this Scripture. Even though I was tempted to say something back to my co-worker, the Lord told me to remain silent and pray for her. I silently prayed for this co-worker as I continued to work throughout the day. This pleased God.

I even prayed for this co-worker during my quiet time this morning. Then, I let it go by surrendering this co-worker’s offense to the Lord. I am quick to forgive. I thank God that He gave me the strength and willingness to forgive this co-worker. The choice that I made to overlook this person’s offense is glorious to God.

~”Pay attention to yourselves! If your brother sins, rebuke him, and if he repents, forgive him, and if he sins against you seven times in the day, and turns to you seven times, saying, ‘I repent,’ you must forgive him.”~Luke 17:3-4, ESV~

I praise the Lord that He gave me the ability to remain silent as my portion rather than to talk back to my co-worker. I thank God that He got me through another day at work. I can do anything with God by my side. With Him, it is possible to repent. With Him, it is possible to extend forgiveness to others. With Him, it is possible to love your neighbor that curses you, even when you bless him or her right back.

~”You shall not take vengeance or bear a grudge against the sons of your own people, but you shall love your neighbor as yourself: I am the Lord.”~Leviticus 19:18, ESV~

God is so good! I praise Him for the power of love and forgiveness to my fellow neighbors, including my co-worker, so that I can be the witness and testimony of Jesus to her.

Praise Immanuel! Praise be to God! Thank You Jesus! Hallelujah!

 

Resting in Prayer

Waiting. Waiting can be tough. Waiting on God can be tough, especially during this time of the Coronavirus pandemic. 

Lately, I’ve been feeling lonely. Being in quarantine and isolation for so long has taken its toll on me, mentally and emotionally. But, through it all, I continue to claim the promises of God. 

~”Jesus looked at them and said, “With man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible.”~Matthew 19:26, NIV~ 

At 3:00 a.m., I wake up in the morning to pray. I pray for at least three to four hours straight (I’ve been praying during this time a lot lately so that I can cope with anxiety). One of the things that I have been praying to God for is that He will end this Coronavirus pandemic. I know that it will be in the timing of God when it ends, but I still worry. 

How long, God, will it go on? How long, God, can I carry on? How long can I go without talking to people from my church in person on a regular basis? 

Very recently, I tried to text one of my friends who used to attend my church. She has not texted me back for a really long time and this has caused me to worry, especially during this time of quarantine and isolation during the Coronavirus pandemic. 

While this makes me feel really sad, I trust God. This makes me feel forgotten and rejected, but I know that my approval comes from God. I am not saying that I hate this person for choosing to not text me back, but it is very hurtful when people of the church lack the maturity to reply back to my messages when all that I am asking for is prayer during this time of quarantine and isolation of the Coronavirus pandemic. 

My prayer is that the Holy Spirit of God will teach this person how to be a better friend. At the same time, I am not accountable or responsible for the actions of others. I pray that God will convict my friend soon because I do not know how much longer that I can wait on God to move mountains that must be moved, in the name of Jesus Christ. 

It is in these moments that as my mind worries, I pray out loud in my bedroom. I pray for God to intervene in the world, because like me, you must be weak, weary, and tired. But, there is hope: You can place your rest in Jesus Christ. 

~”Come to me, all who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you, and learn from me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls.”~Matthew 11:28-29, ESV~ 

Jesus has your back. Jesus saves you in the power of His rest. And He is here with you and fightng this battle called Coronavirus. He has already overcome it. I cannot say when this pandemic will be over, but He has already overcome it and because of this truth, we have victory! 

I am even confident that God is purifying His church during this hard and trying season so that people can catch up in meeting with God. Do not worry! God is with you. God is with us. God is with the world! 

I praise God for the work that He is doing in my life. I thank God for the work that He is doing in America and the world. Praise the Lord! Thank You Jesus! Hallelujah! 

Peace of God in my Heart

I thank God for peace. I thank God for peace, in the name of Jesus Christ.

As I pray to God during my quiet times with Him, I thank Him for providing me with His peace, that surpasses my understanding, of the future and what is to come.

~”For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.”~Jeremiah 29:11, NIV~

I believe with conviction that God has called me to be an author and a counselor. These callings on my life have immensely blessed me as the Lord God has shown me of the future that is to come as a result of these great callings that He has on my life.

One reason that I believe that God has called me to become an author is because God has gifted me with the talent of writing. Writing is one of my many talents that God has given me, beside a wise and discerning spirit. I enjoy writing because with it, I can glorify God through this tool.

I write on blog posts and as a news editor for Atlanta Christian Voice. I am very blessed that God called me to set up this blog website, ‘Sarah’s Spiritual Walk,” after I went on a missions trip to Lebanon a couple of years ago. I am also immensely blessed that the Father called the president of One Christian Voice to choose me to become the news editor for Atlanta Christian Voice.

Several months ago, I was interviewed by a Christian broadcast television network for my missionary works in Lebanon, Japan, and Uganda. I was also interviewed regarding how I became a news editor for Atlanta Christian Voice and I explained in the interview how God made me to become the news editor and how God is growing the business. I thank the Lord for moments like these because I can glorify God in these special moments!

I also believe that God has also called me to become a counselor because I have been through many hardships of which I believe that my future clients can relate to and that I can provide counsel to through the Word of God. I am currently in the Liberty University online program for my third Master of Arts degree in Clinical Mental Health Counseling. I am halfway through the program and do not graduate until the Fall 2021.

Even after I graduate, I still intend to become a Licensed Professional Counselor (LPC), in the state of Georgia. In this way, a few years later, I will be known as Sarah A. Dickens, LPC. Praise the Lord!

I still have a long way to go before I graduate. With the Lord Jesus holding my hand, I have peace that surpasses all understanding. I have peace in the future and what it holds. My future is in the Lord’s hands! Amen!

~”Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable–if anything is excellent or praiseworthy–think about such things. Whatever you have learned or received or heard from me, or seen in me–put it into practice. And the God of peace will be with you.“~Philippians 4:8-9, NIV~