I’m moving forward. And this time, I’m not looking back.

The Lord opened my spiritual eyes. For the first time in years, I see the works of the hands of Jehovah in my life. I see His purpose. I see His plans for me. My future is glorious!

~”For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.”~Jeremiah 29:11, NIV~

For the first time in my life, I have a new understanding of the revelation knowledge of God. I have wisdom beyond my years. And the Holy Spirit of God wants me to impart this understanding and wisdom to those in the world.

I am holy because He is holy. I am pure because the sight that God has given me is pure. I am healed because God has blessed me with healing as my portion, on earth as it is in heaven. I am selfless because the Lord ordained me to bring joy and blessings in place of lack to the helpless. If I cannot show the love of God to others around me, then I am not fulfilled in Christ.

God loved me first, even in the moments when I thought of myself as unlovable or when others chose to not love me or misunderstood me. God loved me first, even in the moments when I could not love myself back because of lack of strength from the divine. God loved me first, even in the moments when I gave selflessly of my spiritual talents and did not receive love in return. And it is with that, I chose to make God my first love.

People disappoint. People fail. People betray. People hurt. People lie. People deceive. But, in spite of treachery, that does not make me a victim. I am a victor in the Lord! Victory is my portion!

I forgive myself for causing hurt that my spiritual eyes could not see. I forgive myself for being too judgemental. I forgive myself for not understanding why…..why……why it had to be this way.

I forgive and go forward, knowing that love covers a multitude of sins. My life is in the hands of Jehovah.

It was the will of God through the divine. He orchestrates things to happen for a reason. My hope for the future is bright and brilliant, even when I cannot see the light of God at the end of the tunnel yet.

~”But I tell you, love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you, that you may be children of your Father in heaven. He causes his sun to rise on the evil and the good, and sends rain on the righteous and the unrighteous.”~Matthew 5:44-45, NIV~

~”Love must be sincere. Hate what is evil; cling to what is good.”~Romans 12:9, NIV~

Even if people turn their back on me…..even if people misunderstand me….even if people judge my relationship with God….I will pray for them!

Jesus never turned His back on anyone that judged Him. Jesus put Himself in the understanding of others (irregardless of what they thought of Him) in order to selflessly meet their needs. Jesus always loved the Lord and stayed in relationship with Him, even when others judged Him for desiring to get closer to God…..And He prayed for them!

And it is with that I go into that secret place, shut myself from the world, abide in that resting place with the Lord, and pray! The works of my hands will be fruitful and multiplied across the ends of the earth with the Word of the Lord that I speak out loud and over my life, stretching to the end of the earth. To God be the glory!