I love Jehovah. I love Jehovah because Christ Jesus is my First Love.
As a child of God with bipolar disorder, I have learned to love myself over the years when others could not and would not love me back. This is because of my love for Jehovah.
~”Nevertheless I have somewhat against thee, because thou hast left thy first love.”~Revelation 2:4, KJV~
As a child of God with bipolar disorder, I am a fallen human. This is because I am a sinner in need of a Savior. Just like every other person on this planet, whether they have a mental illness or not, I am vulnerable to the same struggles as every other human being.
Being vulnerable and open to struggles has opened up my heart and my mind to love myself, even when I mess up. When I mess up, the lessons that life has to offer teach me strength (both inner and Godly strength), as my portion. I become stronger and wiser. I move forward with the lessons learned as I draw close to my First Love (Jehovah).
I remember when I decided to date my ex-boyfriend from the college that I went to in Statesboro, Georgia before transferring colleges to Georgia College and State University. He was not a believer, and as a result, pulled me away from Jehovah, my First Love.
Dating him was not wise, at the time, but, it taught me a valuable lesson that I will not describe in this blog post (if you want to know what that life lesson is, I encourage you to buy the book, “A Victory Song: Beneath the Veil,” and read how the testimony of meeting and dating my ex-boyfriend drew me closer to the heart of Jehovah. MAKE PLANS to buy it if you have not made plans to buy it in February 2022 once it is released for sale).
~”Little children, keep yourselves from idols. Amen.”~1 John 5:21, KJV~
The heart of God is love. The heart of God is love, even when I make mistakes and learn from them. As long as I learn from and grow from my mistakes, they make me a stronger woman of the King, and, as a child of God with bipolar disorder.
Battling mental illness, for me, and learning from my mistakes has drawn me closer to the heart of God because He has taught me, from prayer, how to be more like Jesus and less like me as I learn from God how to be like Jesus to make a better version of myself for the multitudes to behold and marvel.
Battling mental illness, for me, and growing from my mistakes has made me a woman of Godliness. I have learned to make peace with God and myself as I draw into the heart to Jehovah, as my First Love. Making peace with God is a part of my healing in the Lord, as a child of God with bipolar disorder, and as I carry my cross daily.
Battling mental illness, for me, is walking away from toxic people and avoiding negativity, which is of the enemy, and setting boundaries with myself so that I can go and grow in my relationship with God. I talk deeply in my book about setting boundaries with my mother and with people from my past (I do not want to give away too much, so PLEASE make plans to buy, “A Victory Song: Beneath the Veil,” once it is published in February 2022).
I love Jehovah. I love Jehovah because Christ Jesus is my First Love over my sin and my need to depend on Him, as a child of God with bipolar disorder. Glory to Jehovah in Heaven and Hallelujah!